Please, do not expect to have daily posts prior to the end of the year. For the next few weeks we will be firmly involved in the last 36 days of work for Jen and holidays with family and friends. I told her that she would just have to wait and see what happens. Jen has already asked me not to embarrass or make her cry. I have decided not to disclose my answer to the question until the day of the ceremony. I had it in my mind that the day would never come, so I never expected to have to give an answer to the question being posed. On Monday I received a call from Jen’s supervisor asking me if I would like to speak at her retirement party. Our plans for retirement are screaming at us like a freight train. Being the early riser that I am, I will devote a few minutes to bring you all up to speed. Today is Thanksgiving and I have put other projects and tasks aside to visit family. I fear that I will lose the respect and following that I have worked hard to build. I love writing so much that when I do not share I have feelings of guilt. I started writing with the best possible intentions and now it seems that I cannot stop. Mama used to tell me that I was hooked on adrenaline, which is why I couldn’t relax, I’m so thankful that drama no longer defines me.ĭo Thanksgiving YOUR way, maybe Covid19 is helping us all to learn about the important things in life and taking time to enjoy them.There are days when I feel like the blog has become an obsession. This is a good week to take stock of what works for you (and not) in your life and learning to keep things simple. Grateful for being able to put my thoughts in writing, for keeping up with friends even if it’s via Zoom, and dare I say it? Grateful to have peace in my life. Although I still feel grateful to have a home to come to, for my room/apartment when I need true refuge from people, places, and things. Now that this cuarentena has us on lock down one day, free the next, I haven’t really been able to do a lot of the things WHERE I want to do them. Of course, these are only for me but I’ve noticed that I’ve been able to work much smarter and to be a lil more relaxed with my daily “to do” tasks written on my white board updated every day, to keeping the calendar of family stuff and birthdays, and to working family dinners and events, and pushing myself to make sure things were ready/done one hour before before “doors”–the opening of doors before the start of an event. What’s hilarious to me is that I’m still very much Type A: I really do ‘plan’ out my life as if it were an event, timelines, deadlines and everything. I had to do the work on myself, still do. For years, I was embarrassed to admit that I actually loved hanging out with these people, being at home, doing things that fulfilled me like writing and reading. These have been my refuge when things didn’t go well with a job, or a man, or anything. Took me years to truly appreciate the important things in life for me: home, family, simple pleasures. Gratitude meant that everything was enough, that I didn’t have to be perfect all of the time, that I needed to just relax and just be…all of the things that I longed for when I’d be working an event for hours missing what was happening at home. That is, until I learned about gratitude. It was always expected that I would take charge, even when I didn’t want to sometimes, I did it. I was able to provide great holidays for the masses but never able to find that joy for myself. I was around people 24/7 so I was burned out at family things which now gives me a lot of regret. Maybe it’s because I’ve worked holiday events almost my entire life and career that I’ve rarely appreciated the holidays as maybe I should have. #52SlicesOfChingonaLife #52EssaysNextWave 38/52
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